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By: Chrismide Chery
Today I died. I woke up with the feeling of killing myself. Here is where it all started.
My name is Alana. I’m 15 years old in the 10th grade and I live in Bridgeport, CT.
I stayed up all night studying for a History test, and before I knew it, it was 6:00 in the morning. I woke up with a big smile on my face and a good feeling because I knew that I would pass the test that day.
Bang-bang “Alana wake up, you have to get ready for school,” said my mom.
I looked down at my backpack just lying there on the floor with papers sticking out. At that point my smile had vanished, and I wasn’t feeling so good about the test anymore. I got up, brushed my teeth and then hit the shower, but as I stepped in I slipped and twisted my ankle. I came out of the shower limping and all that was going on in my head while I was in pain was Yes, I don’t have to go to school today, although I wanted to take that test. I then put on some clean pajamas and headed straight downstairs to go eat breakfast. This is where half of it starts.
“Alana, why are you in your PJs?” asked my mom.
“I twisted my ankle”
“So?” said my mom.
“So I can’t go to school with a twisted ankle.”
“Hun, you know you start Pine Sol High School today. Did you forget?”
I stopped and sat there silently, as if I were trying to remember something. My dream of not going to school was gone at this point, crushed like a bug.
“Pine Sol High School? Isn’t that a name for a liquid soap to clean the floors?”
“Unfortunately when they were mopping, they fell in love with the smell and how good it cleaned,” said my mom.
I was still sitting at the kitchen table eating some cut-up apples and drinking some water, talking to my mom about my new school. The school sounded pretty nice but I didn’t know if the kids will be nice as well.
“Mom, I twisted my ankle and plus no one told me about me switching schools.”
“Oh honey, I know you don’t want to go but you could have made up a better lie, and if any kids start to bully you just go to the principal,” said my mom.
My life had changed all of a sudden and I didn’t know what to do. I walked slowly up the stairs thinking about my new school and what it would be like. I got dressed slowly, just thinking about what the kids would be like at my new school. I then got into the car silently and sat there thinking, Will I get bullied in that school? All I could think about was my new school.
I don’t know why I felt sad, it’s not like I had friends in my other school. It’s just that it was normal and I got used to being picked on and I knew how to deal with it. This was a new school now, and it was going to take some time to get used to it.
Seemed like a long drive but I finally arrived at Pine Sol High. The school actually smelled like Pine Sol but the floor didn’t look too clean. Suddenly, my name wasn’t Alana anymore, because as I was getting out of the car my foot got stuck in the seat belt and I fell on the sidewalk.
Everyone saw me fall and they all laughed. My mom even chuckled a little bit but she’s my mother so I guess it’s OK. My name was now Clustsyana. As I turned the corner everyone just stared at me. I didn’t know why they were looking at me like that. Especially this one girl.
The moment they saw me and recognized me they all started to laugh. I really wanted to know why they kept looking at their phones and laughing. That’s when it got to my head. Someone took a video of me when I tripped. I didn’t want to embarrass myself even more so I tried to be cool with it, and I guess that was a bad idea.
“Hi my name is Alana, I’m new here.”
Everyone just stood there staring at me until someone broke the silence.
“We can all see that,” said a girl.
“Oh ok, well does anybody know where locker B25 is?”
“Yea, it’s down that hall and around the corner,” said this boy
“Oh um, well thank you.”
I walked in the direction he told me to—well, I really didn’t walk, I speed walked because I was starting to feel embarrassed. The boy that told me where locker B25 was wasn’t actually telling me the truth. I made my way to the boys locker room where it smelled like sweat, the bathroom, and more sweat. Why did he lie to me and make me go into the boy’s locker room? At this point I already knew that the kids weren’t going to be nice here. Should have already known.
I found a janitor in the hall and asked him where locker B25 was, and this time I got the right directions. I finally got to my locker and opened it, and it smelled like sweaty gym socks but there was no time to deal with that. I quickly took out the things I needed and stuffed my back pack in my locker looking a mess, and ran to class. I walked into class with my hair messed up and somehow with a stain on my pants. Everyone was looking at me.
“Um yes dear, are you lost?” said Mrs. Water.
“No I’m not lost, I’m new here and my schedule said I have math first.”
“Ah.. You’re the new girl aren’t ya?” said Mrs. Waters.
“Why yes, I am.”
To be continued…
In ” Will It Ever Stop” part 2, Alana got transferred a new school called Pine Sol High. Alana’s mom, Judith thought that she had already told Alana but once she told Alana to get ready for a new school, that’s when she figured she had forgotten to tell her daughter. Alana doesn’t want to go to a new school because she has been bullied in her old school, but she has adjust to the feeling of getting bullied so it’s nothing new, but the first day is always the worst. She already has been humiliated in front of everybody has she was getting out of her car, and is trying to watch her step from now on. Lets see. Where did I leave off:
I walked out the classroom to find a traffic jam in the hallway, no one was
letting me by.
“Um excuse me, can I get by please, UM EXCUSE ME!!!
Everybody stopped and stared at me
“Hey what do you know”said the same boy with the weird haircut
She thinks she’s tough
Everybody started laughing at me, I felt small, really small………